Someone please tell me.

Why? Why after five fucking years do I still have feelings for someone? What exactly our status was back then is debatable, but regardless I was crazy for him, he found someone else and I moved away yet every time he starts to see someone new I get jealous and depressed and I begin to wonder if ever again I will find someone who I feel for in that manner. I'm seriously starting to doubt it. Fuck men. Fuck dating. Fuck relationships. It is apparently not in the cards for me.